Have you ever had everything you have ever wanted come true and then you’re like...is this it?
I’ve always wanted to create my own schedule, have the autonomy to decide what and how I do my work, and the ability to just get up and go at any time. And miraculously (and through hard work), I can do all of this.
And yet…
Life still feels blah. I feel just as lost as when I started dreaming of this life. I guess I always thought about the conditions on how to set up a life I really wanted but never thought about what my day to day life would look like once I was there.
Each day I find it hard (Difficult? Stressful? Draining? Uncomfortable?...I’m working on my feeling words 🤷♀️) and haven’t found my groove.
And I get it y’all...it’s only been a little bit of time. But, for some reason...I thought it would be easier than this.
I thought I would just wake up and start walking and talking the life I visualized and manifested all these years. And yet, I’m still looking around at the same walls, sitting on the same couch, but now with no accountability to anyone else (besides my children and partner).
So like, what’s the problem?
What I am realizing is that, even though it feels like I snapped my fingers and poof, a beautiful life has begun, that’s not real.
What is real is the ability to get up and change the world (my own and globally) into what I truly want...even if I don’t really know what that is.
This is the real work I have signed up for by leaving my consistent income “work”. I’ve got to find a way to tap into my excitement and create what I have always wanted instead of just wishing and dreaming it was already here.
So, will you join me on the journey?
Cuz ya know your girl is going to need to process this, OUT LOUD, several times a day 😂
Stay tuned as I’ll be documenting where my life is heading here on my blog. And comment below and let me know where you are on the journey; I think we could all use a buddy 💜